I think that to a certain contingency of our population, victims of mass shootings (and violent crime in general) aren’t really people.

They aren’t people, because they aren’t someone the contingency personally knows. In the contingency’s mind, the people who died are still “theory”.

Sociopaths don’t see other people as people. Their brains don’t function in a way that allows them to understand this. But the general population can have a similar version of this brain malfunction as well. It occurs as part of the tribalism mindset, where someone who doesn’t look like me isn’t a human like me. Or it can occur when one is stuck in mythic consciousness, where one can treat another as inhuman as long as those in charge condone it. And that’s how we get stuck arguing about “theories” like, “Does everyone deserve healthcare? Or a living wage? Or due process? Or the right to attend a concert without being assaulted and killed?”

This is a brain function problem and a consciousness problem. And it is an individual problem leading up to a collective problem.

But, the only remedy is at the individual level. We have to choose, as people, to get our houses in order AND to be open to looking at the world through a broader lens.

A friend of mine always says, “You can’t scream for peace, you can’t shout for peace, you have to BE peace.” And a second friend always follows with “It’s just a decision.”

We are entering a time where that decision is upon us. We have to make it individually, no matter how uncomfortable or lonely it is. And, we cannot make the decision for anyone else.

It’s the only way this stops and something new begins.

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Using Others as Mirrors for Our Own Integration


According to “The Independent”  Donald Trump and Prince Charles are in danger of having a “row” over climate change.  Specifically from the article:  “Members of the Republican politician’s staff have warned that Prince Charles, Queen Elizabeth’s son, should not “lecture” him on climate change during the visit in case the fiery politician “erupts” in return.”


An exchange like this is practically begging to be dissected from an emotional integration point of view.

For starters, I find it amusing there is fear that neither man will be able to control himself during this exchange.  Reading the article,  one would almost think we were getting ready to watch a couple of schoolboys throw down in a parking lot.  Instead, we have to be reminded that the concern is over the leader of the free world and the heir to a throne whilst having a discussion about one of the most critical issues of our time.  However, given the state of consciousness the world is currently in, most probably see nothing out of the ordinary here.  Quite possibly, many people only see the side of the climate change debate each man represents and hopes that in the ensuing drama, their representative will come out on top.

For those of you who may not be aware of the term “emotional integration”,  it can best be described succinctly as having enough awareness of one’s emotional triggers that one can typically be in a place of response in any matter as opposed to a place of reaction.  There are several paths to becoming emotionally integrated.    However, the end result allows the recipient to engage with the world without causing any unnecessary or distracting drama.   Using the tools of emotional integration (especially if both parties are in this state of consciousness) makes it easier to come to a place of mutual respect and cooperation.

Now, mind you, I do not currently have the opportunity to make the acquaintance of either Mr. Trump or the Prince of Wales.  In fact, it is impossible to know if the statement reported is true or is the hyperbole the press is so fond of these days.  No matter; the fact that it was reported in such a manner reflects the consciousness of the population.  We pay for hyperbole because we are unintegrated ourselves.  And that is why this discussion matters.  When we, the populace, become integrated our leaders will become integrated.  They will have to, or they will no longer have the opportunity to lead.    Thus, this is the direction this blog will take going forward, so that we might be able to discuss current events and the world at large from their place of consciousness as they  only reflect back to us what is going on within ourselves.  What world leaders do or do not is immaterial.  They are nothing more than fodder for discussion.  What matters the most is how we choose to internalize and respond to that which is outside ourselves.

Let us begin with the concern that Prince Charles will “lecture” Mr. Trump on climate change.  What does this mean?  Will he, as many people nowadays do, try to convert Mr. Trump to his side?  Will he ridicule?  Will he attempt to instruct when instruction was not asked for?  Will he try to tell Mr. Trump what he and his country “should do”?

All of these are the signs of an unintegrated ego.  Lecturing, “shoulding”, and attempts to force belief onto others can reflect back many things.  Without knowing Prince Charles, no one can say if he actually feels called to do this or why.  (We can speculate, but nothing more.)  So we turn the question on ourselves.  Perhaps we have someone in our own lives who does this to us.  Perhaps we do it to others.  Either way, when we get down to the core of the reason why we behave in these ways (and why we project this behavior onto others, even in news articles) typically it is because we harbor some unintegrated fear, anger, shame, or grief.  We then look outside ourselves to change the behaviors or beliefs of others in order to get what we want so that we can feel better.

What is the integrated version of this story?  Perhaps, if the Prince Charles of the article is integrated, what he really wants to do is have a discussion.  He wants to present the information he has available.   He wants to express his beliefs.  He is transparent and vulnerable enough to share his fears and other feelings without the need to lecture or have power over another.  He is willing to openly hear either the integrated or unintegrated emotions of his opposition, if there are any.   He is able to respect the other’s feelings without wavering in his own convictions.   He can do this because he has the strength of knowing his true self.  And, because he moves in the world without fear, he is able to have a rational discussion on a very serious matter.

Likewise, we look at the fear of reaction from Donald Trump.  The article states that aides fear Mr. Trump will erupt if he encounters information he does not agree with.  Again, we do not know if this will be the case of Mr. Trump.  We do not truly know if he is integrated or unintegrated and cannot assume one way or another.  In the end, it doesn’t matter what is or is not going on with him.  What matters is that we look at what we fear and then examine it within ourselves.

“Erupting” at others is definitely a sign that we are in a place of reaction, not response.  When we lose control of our emotions; when we yell, hurl insults, or make threats towards others, we are reacting to what we perceive as a threat.  We may believe the other person is going to hurt us by their beliefs.  We may feel like they are going to force us to do something we don’t want, so we become defensive.  We are also afraid to share how we really feel because we fear they will take advantage of us, make fun of us, or otherwise bruise our identity.  When we are unintegrated, we defend our identity wildly.  We want the other person to stop what they are doing, go away, and never do it again.

What is the integrated way of handling information we don’t want?  First, we acknowledge how we feel.  (Early on, we may not be able to do this in the moment, only in hindsight.)  Second, we check to see if what we feel is actually happening in the moment. Is the person really trying to control or hurt us, or do they just believe differently than we do?  Is the experience  a projection of something unpleasant from our past that we are afraid is occurring again?  What is our responsibility?  Finally, we feel what we are feeling while the event is taking place (and sometimes, even afterwards by ourselves).  We allow ourselves to feel all the “negative” emotions that may come up without lashing out or creating drama with the other person.

The result is that we will often find the other person is not actually trying to harm us.  They may be trying to give us information, or if they are unintegrated, they may be trying to “should” us.  Either way, it does not matter.  We know that in most cases, we are not in danger of being harmed or of losing our beliefs.  We can hear the other.  We can also be transparent and share how we are feeling.  Again, we put ourselves in a place of unattachment to the results of the encounter.  And by doing so, we set ourselves up for a more meaningful and positive interaction.

What will happen with Mr. Trump and the Prince of Wales? There is no way to tell until it actually happens.  Until then, it behooves us to remain integrated ourselves.  We can address our own fear, anger, shame, and sadness that this interaction might bring up for us , irregardless of how the two leaders choose to engage.  And we can walk away from any exchange that does not serve our best interests as a society and as individuals.


Corporate Wellness Problems

With the dawning of the New Year, many news outlets have been blasting corporate wellness programs for the shams that they are.  And rightly so.  Corporate “wellness” programs are a way for businesses to engage in the fraudulent behavior of claiming to help their employees and reduce healthcare costs while actually doing nothing at all.  Worse, in some cases they add to a culture of “un-wellness” in many corporate environments.

For example, when I worked for a company that required us to participate in a wellness program to receive a percentage off our insurance; I was repeatedly subjected to corporate sanctioned behavior that negatively impacted my recovery from an eating disorder.   For those of you that may not know this, eating disorders are never cured.  They are lifelong illnesses that are managed, much like alcoholism and depression.  Alcoholics often abstain from not only drinking alcohol, but even being put in situations where the temptation of alcohol could impair their recovery.  Diet talk (even when it is disguised as a “lifestyle choice”) triggers eating disordered behavior and can cause someone with an ED to relapse.  Our “wellness program” constantly pressured me to participate in “weight loss challenges” and “lifestyle coaching” in attempts to get me to lose weight.  As a result, I constantly relapsed with my ED until I no longer worked for that company.  This is just one, personal example of how “corporate wellness programs” are complete and total bullshit.

My story isn’t unusual.  Sometimes, the programs aren’t necessarily harmful, but they are ridiculously ineffectual.  For example, another woman I worked with had recently agreed to foster an 18 month old infant.  Because of this, she was unusually sleep deprived.  Guess what?  The program insisted she sign up for their “ insomnia program”.  The problem was that she didn’t have insomnia (which, BTW, should be diagnosed by a physician, not a computer generated questionnaire).  The “problem” was a temporary life circumstance.  But, if she didn’t participate in the program, she was charged more for insurance.

Another coworker began to struggle with her blood pressure.  Her doctor said that based on her readings, this was due to stress.  What was causing the stress?  Surely not the unreasonable demands that corporate had recently placed on her regarding revenue building.  Surely not the demands that she fudge the numbers to make the profit look bigger than it was.  Surely not the fact that every time she turned around she was threatened with being fired over not meeting impossible expectations!  How exactly was the “stress coaching” she received supposed to mitigate the damage caused by her employer? 

The fact is, these “wellness programs” are a symptom of the smoke and mirrors syndrome that plagues our culture.   Corporations like to put programs like this into place so that it looks like they are actually doing something to promote wellness, whether or not the programs are helpful.   It also keeps them from having to do the real work and expense of providing a truly healthy work culture.

We support smoke and mirrors when we don’t call it out.  Or when we “go along to get along”.  And then later, we complain when things aren’t working.   For many of us this is the result of fear and a desire to remain comfortable.  It is easier to ignore and complain than to hold ourselves accountable for our experience.

One of the hardest things we are asked to do in this life is facing discomfort and transforming our experience.  However, when we meet this challenge, our life and the lives of others are changed for the better in ways we can never imagine.  As we do this, others see the positive results of our journey and join us in our endeavors.  We are able to come together as voices of reason to negotiate better work situations for ourselves.  By taking our power back, we create our own “culture of wellness” that effective, reasonable, and rational.

It is hard to step outside of a culture of insanity.   We need each other to create a new culture of health, balance, and courage.   By changing our inner world it is much easier to come together and change the outer.  Take the leap and others will follow.

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Observations from the Middle

The recent presidential election has provided me with a lot of opportunities for introspection and emotional integration.  While most people in my circle view me as a liberal, the truth is that I really fall somewhere in the middle, embracing some aspects of libertarian-ism along with other aspects of progressive-ism.   This has given me an interesting opportunity to observe both sides of the coin, so to speak.

The commonality that I see from both the right and the left (especially on the extreme ends of these paradigms) is the need to control others.  We could go into specifics about how each group wants to exercise control, but this is not necessary.  The main point is that each group needs to get more “members into the fold”.  It needs everyone to agree and think alike in order to exercise power.

While common thinking extols the power in numbers, having everyone THINK alike is not what gives a group power.  The power comes from the individual members of the group deciding to work together, despite their differences, to achieve a common goal (fodder for another post).   Unfortunately, the common goal from both the right and the left is to create policies that make others do what the group wants. 

On the surface, this can create the appearance of a practical conundrum.  Don’t we need to MAKE people do stuff to achieve the “greater good”?  Don’t we need to STOP other people from doing things that harm?  Isn’t it our responsibility to make others do what we think is right?

 The spiritual answer relieves our conundrum.  We are only responsible for ourselves.  We are only in control of how we respond to situations.  That is it.

 Not only do we not have control over others, it is morally wrong to attempt to exert control over another’s experience.  We cannot make people do what we think is right.  We cannot provide a proper experience for someone else.  With that, we cannot keep someone from their own experience.

When we agree to not keep others from their experience, this goes for the “good” as well as the “bad”.  We allow others to make mistakes, fail, and even “sin” as they choose to do so.  We also allow others to stand on their own, take their own action, and make their own destiny.  We do not stand in their way or keep them from opportunity even if we fear that it keeps us from ours.  For when we fear that another’s success leads to our perceived loss, this is the indication that it is time for us to look inward at our own beliefs and perceptions of the world.  Finally, when we accept our responsibility for our experience, we invite others to do the same. 

 This is not to say that we are cold to the struggles of others.  When asked for help or guidance, we provide it (if we can) without expectation of the other person’s outcomes.  We support others when they ask for solidarity.  We express what we need and when listen when others express their needs.  We work together in community as is appropriate for us and as we are called to do so.  But it stops there.

Imagine what the world would look like if we were strong enough to stay out of each other’s way.  If we were integrated enough to not feel the need to hurt or control others out of our own anger, fear, and sorrow.  If we put all of our energy towards saving ourselves instead of co-dependently trying to save others.

I believe this is one of  the keys to making the world a better place for all of us.  How about you?

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Stupid Choices From My 20 Year Old Self

When I was twenty, I made some stupid choices.  No, they aren’t the kind of “stupid choices” you’re thinking of.  I was a good kid.  I never got in trouble.  I didn’t drink and my experience with drugs was only in relation to the gossip that surrounded the “bad kids” in town.

No, I made a different kind of stupid decision.  The kind of stupid decisions that are encouraged by our society.  The kind of stupid decisions that people are praised for making.  I made decisions based on pleasing my parents and fitting in with society.

At the time, I didn’t know any better.  I thought that following what my teachers and parents said, I would end up with a good job and a happy life.  So, I picked a career that my parents approved of because they thought it would bring prestige and money.  I gave up pursuing anything that made me truly happy because it didn’t fit in a little box.  I was told I could do those things as hobbies, never realizing that when you are an adult there’s usually no time and often no money for such things.  It lead me into an adulthood of extreme unhappiness.  And because the economy changed, the guarantee of a steady income and job security vanished.

As I look back on my time in my twenties, I can now see several reasons for having made the decisions I did.  I was completely disconnected from any kind of “inner knowing” or my Higher Self.  I had no sense of purpose other than I was supposed to earn money and make my parents proud.  The concepts of spiritual integration, connection to my true self, and making decisions from a place of response instead of reaction were completely unheard of.  The result was a very painful early adulthood which launched me onto my spiritual quest.

This quest resulted in the acquisition of various tools to change my experience, including brain training.  I make more conscious choices now.  I have learned to respond to my experience as opposed to reacting to it.  I am now in contact with my Higher Self on more occasions than not.   My life isn’t perfect, but I can definitely say that it is much, much better than when I started out. 

Maybe you’ve done this too.  Perhaps you have built a life around the expectations of others.  Or maybe you made choices that you thought would make life easier, but found out that it was not the case.   In any event, the best thing to know is that it is never too late to change.  The trick is to not keep choosing from those old places, fears, or desires.  The way to change your experience is to connect with your true self and make choices from that place.  You will be amazed by what happens.


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